Current mood:	cranky
Current music:	foo fighters mix

Think I need a devil to help me get things right
What do you do when you feel as if youre about to combust? When you feel like you might just crumble to the floor while your insides bleed out from the rubble...Or when you feel so much pressure its suprising youre not bleeding from the ears...Theres always some type of antidote to overcome whats ailing you isnt there? A minuscule shimmer of optimism that stiches you together tight enough allowing you to stand up and reassemble. A friend, a movie, a song, a poem, anything... Everyones got one. But what happens when you cant find that? When youve lost youre security...youre reassurance that everythings gonna be ok? When the friend grew distant, the movie isnt around, the song lost its power, you cant find the poem...Even when you make due with the next best thing...eventually the cd ends, the sun sinks, and that unsettling aroma of dinner being prepared all sets in. It freaks the hell out of me ill tell you that much. And I dont know how to reassemble anymore. Theres so many people I wanna bring back.Theres so many things I wish I would have done..said..meant. Not like it cant be done or anything...just hope its not too late.