EVERYTHING happens for a reason?? .....everything?
Sometimes I really do believe that. Sometimes I can only hope the reasons will be extremely worthwhile. Sometimes I wonder why I even need reassurance from the most cliche of all phrases. When you plan for something but then change your mind, will you miss out completely or will the experience be even better when it all works out smoothly rather than how it would have been if you rushed it half willingly... There are people in this world who live their lives obsessing over 'being apart of it all'. Highschool friends never daring to miss a friday night at so and so's house... college kids, nervous about missing even just one party... it could even be seen in adulthood. Why are we so fixated on being involved? It offers security? If youre always around, you wont miss anything? No one will talk about you because you are always there?
But for a person who is running on empty, to come home from work or school or wherever, deny themselves the relaxation of a shower, a nap, a night of rest and rejuvenation....all because he or she would rather meet whoever wherever, is ridiculous. Without time to yourself you begin to lose touch with who you are. If you cant find yourself on your own, everything will start to crack and youll forget about thinking within before thinking outside. It depends how you look at things. You should understand yourself enough to WANT to be around yourself. There should be nights where you want to stay in and that needy feeling of wanting to be out will slowly fade.